I need the song started over because your crying made me miss my favorite part

First of all, just want to say that I am in love with my moodtheme right now; it is absolutely rocking my world. I figured out how to put one up yesterday, and now my journal is a little more retro and snarky and I am loving it.

I finished watching Life on Mars yesterday, and for some reason all I want to do is go back and watch it again; hell, I probably would if I had the time. I may re-watch a couple more episodes this morning to tide me over until I can buy it, hopefully this Christmas if all goes well.

Today is my last day here, which brings me down quite a bit. As strange as it may sound, this place has become my own little slice of paradise. Admittedly, there are some parts of home that I miss. I miss the familiar comfort of my own room, miss Addie ( my scotty dog) and Lilo and Stitch (my cats). I miss my family too, but with everything that's going on with them at the moment I could do with some more time away from them, I'll admit. I have a lot on my mind regarding them lately and being here gives me a chance to sort it out a bit better and also to just relax and be able to let go of it for awhile.

As usual, my friends have been my saving grace, as they always are. Colette has been an absolute joy to be around, and has put up with me longer than I was sure anyone could without tearing their hair out. Being around her for two weeks has really shown me how close we really are; it feels like we're sisters honestly. I can talk to her about anything, joke around with her, and be my usual blunt, sarcastic self and she just takes it all in stride. I wish she still lived close to me, because after this visit I don't know when I'll be able to see her again and that thought really breaks my heart. I don't know what I'd do without her.

But of course, there's someone else as well; the always wonderful Deanna, who understands me as well as Colette. Even though we've never met, I still count her as one of my closest friends. It still amazes me how we can get on the phone and just find things to bullshit about one minute, and then fairly serious the next, and I love it. We're kind of a wacky duo in a way, and though we have so many differences, we also have a lot in common. I feel a very strong bond with her, and she never, ever fails to get me cracking up. One day we will meet and I have no doubt it will be epic, even if all we do is sit in her room and watch Doctor Who/Torchwood/Life on Mars/Eureka/Repo......well, you get the idea. She's another one who can put up with me for long periods (even if it is just on the phone), and for that I am forever grateful.

Okay, so this journal entry somehow became more somber than I first anticipated, especially considering the icon, subject line, and moodtheme picture, so I propose to lighten this up a bit with some random but fun experiences that I've had since being here.

~ Saw Rocky Horror Picture Show on the big screen. I know I covered this a couple of entries ago, but I thought I'd mention it again because it was so ridiculously awesome and epic and epically awesome. I'm sure I'll probably end up doing it again sometime, because nothing get the blood pumping like doing The Time Warp with a bunch of strangers in a dark theatre.

~ Experienced a Mocha Java Chiller at Sonic's. This seems like a relatively small thing but trust me: these things are AMAZING. As much as I love Starbucks, this beverage blows almost all of their mocha drinks out of the water (save for one, which I will talk about it a moment). If you have a Sonic's near you and have not yet tried one of these things, I urge you to go out and do it now. Trust me, your life will be a little better for it.

~ Experienced a Peppermint Mocha at Starbucks, that singular mocha drink that the Mocha Java Chiller at Sonic's cannot eclipse. All I have to say about this is: Deanna, you were totally right.

~ Saw 'Cirque Du Freak: The Vampire's Apprentice' a few days ago and was pleasantly surprised. I mean, I had a feeling I was going to like it, but I enjoyed it even more than I had first thought. It was definitely an original take on vampire lore (and not in the sparkly, sub-moronic sense), which I found rather refreshing. I know there's a book series that the movie's based on but I'm a little apprehensive about reading it. In my experience, it'll either ruin the movie for me or I'll just end up hating the book, so I probably won't look into it for awhile.

~ Got a new video game that turned out to be a very pleasant surprise. The game is called 'Hotel Dusk: Room 215'. It's a very text-heavy detective game, and I am loving every minute of it. Since I suck at summaries, especially to games, here is the product description from Amazon:

Part hard-boiled detective story, and part interactive mystery, Hotel Dusk: Room 215 is an intriguingly addictive yarn that takes place over the course of one night; December 28, 1979.

Game Storyline
Kyle Hyde, a disgraced New York detective turned salesman, arrives at a run-down Los Angeles inn called Hotel Dusk. Once there, Kyle soon becomes involved in a 30-year-old mystery that involves lies, betrayal, kidnapping, and murder. And over the course of the night, he will also discover something very special about Room 215, a room that is said to grant wishes. But who is Kyle Hyde? Why does his past haunt him? And what happened in Room 215? Only by taking a stylus in hand and navigating through the story's twists and turns can you learn the answers.

Yeah, it's not the best summary, and it definitely doesn't do the game justice. If you don't mind text-heavy games with a great plot and great characters, I definitely recommend this game.

Well I think that's pretty much the long and the short of it. Until next time, drink a Mocha Chiller, and surround yourself with armed bastards!

I have been listening to this song constantly since I discovered it a few days ago and I thought I'd share. Hope everyone enjoys:



You're all smiles and silly conversation
As if this sunny day came just for you
You twist your hair, you smile and you turn your eyes away
C'mon, tell me whats right with you
Now it dawns on me probably everybody's talkin'
And theres something here I'm supposed to realize
Cause your secrets out, and the universe laughs at its joke on me
I just caught it in your eyes, its a beautiful surprise

Chorus:
When did you fall in love with me?
Was it out of the blue
Cause I swear I never knew it
When did you let your heart run free?
Have you been waiting long?
When did you fall in love with me?
When did you fall in love?

Make your way over here, sit down by this fool, and lets rewind
C'mon, lets go back and replay all our scenes
You can point out the hints, the clues, the twists and the smiles this time
All the ones that slipped by me
I bet my face is red, and you can hear my heart poundin'
Well I guess it don't matter now that I realize
Cause baby I missed it then, but I can surely see you now
Right there before my eyes
You're my beautiful surprise

Chorus:

Was it at the coffee shop
Or that morning at the bus stop
When you almost slipped, and I caught your hand
Or the time we built the snowman
The day at the beach, sandy and warm
Or the night with the scary thunderstorm
I never saw the signs
Now we've got to make up for lost time
And I can tell now by the way that you're looking at me
Id better finish this song so my lips will be free

Have you been waiting long, when did you fall in love
I kept you waiting so long, when did you fall
Have you been waiting long
When did you fall in love with me
When did you fall in love?

I am back at Colette's for another visit, this time for two weeks. This is Day 4, I am having a fantastic time thus far, except for the fact that I keep waking up at ungodly hours even though I'm going to bed at ungodly hours. I've been up for about 3 hours now and I still feel groggy, though that could just be boredom talking. I've been looking up Lucy/Master fanfiction and watching 'The Guild'. Yeah I know; just when you think the nerd bar can go no lower, I somehow find to drop it a few notches.

So my Halloween was pretty awesome; I got to go to a midnight showing of 'Rocky Horror Picture Show', which was a lot of fun. It was the first one they had ever done in this area, so lines weren't being shouted at the screen as often as they could have been, but props were used liberally and everyone danced to 'The Time Warp', so I would definitely call it a success. Plus, it was just fun to see the movie in theatres; I've seen it a few times with friends, but this was a completely different experience. I definitely gained a new appreciation and a new love for the movie.

I have finally given up on trying to get a job for the time being and have registered at a community college nearby; woo-hoo! My grandparents are helping me start out, money-wise, and I'm going to apply for FASFA to cover the rest of it, hopefully. I'm really excited to start, and it's just a great feeling to know that my life is actually going somewhere again. For the past two and a half years I've felt like I was stuck in a bit of a limbo and now that things are getting back on track, I couldn't be happier. The only downside is that there is no drama program, but I'm going to take choir to make up for it, which is almost as good. So yeah, definitely some good news in that department.

Deanna and I have started a new RP yet again, going back to our old stand-by, Torchwood, which is always a blast to do. We are taking things in a different direction than last time, and I get to do more of dramatic!Jack than I did last time, which is fun. We are also doing something with The Master, which has brought my love of the Lucy/Master pairing straight to the surface, hence why I was hunting for fanfiction earlier. Yeah, I know it's a little twisted, but I think there was actual love there, in a twisted sort of way. I'm excited to see where this particular RP will go, but no matter what, it's always a joy to RP with Deanna. She is amazing with the characters, and has rather spoiled me when it comes to Ianto, John Hart, and Lucy as well.

I have found some pretty fantastic music since I've been here, which is always exciting for me. I discovered most of them on youtube music videos that I just randomly came across, along with a playlist or two and some recommendations. Colette basically told me yesterday that I was addicted to my music (hence the journal entry subject), and she's right. I have music on pretty much whenever I can, and I never go anywhere without my MP3 player in my purse. I don't know what it is; I just love having a good melody that I can sing along to, whether it be a fun, upbeat song and something slower and somber. Music has always played a huge part of my life, and I wouldn't have it any other way.

Well I'm going to wrap it up here. Until next time, don't forget to eat some Jelly Babies and please....do the Time Warp again!

No, the subject line has nothing to do with this entry. Colette said it when she was playing WoW (World of Warcraft), and it just struck me as hilarious.

I had a lovely day yesterday; one of those days that's rather simplistic but is highly enjoyable all the same. It started at breakfast, because for breakfast I had Nutella toast. Now, for those of you who have never tried this exquisite creation, I suggest you stop reading this and go out and buy some for yourself. Seriously, it's delicious. That alone got my day off to a great start; it's amazing what a nice breakfast can do for you.

After that, Colette's grandmother drove us to the mall to see a movie. Before the movie however, we headed into Barnes & Noble and parked ourselves in a random isle with a few books. I got kind of tired of the selection in said aisle (manga) and began to wander. Heading into the sci-fi fantasy section, I stumbled onto the Torchwood novels.....bliss! I was torn between 'Bay Of The Dead', which had a very pretty picture of Ianto on the cover, and 'The House That Jack Built', which had a very pretty picture of Jack on the cover (why no, this was not a superficial decision ^_^). After much agonizing on a very shallow level that I feel rather sheepish about, I started to flip through the books, and came across a passage in 'The House That Jack Built' that just cemented my decision for me. And, because I'm a nerd, I will share said passage with you:

'Julia [woman who lives in Jack's old house and the victim of strange happenings within said house] felt tears in her eyes, and she bit her lip. She was determined not to give into that any more. "It might be commonplace to you [Jack]," she muttered, "but I don't normally go around shoving tools in people's mouths."
There was an awkward pause at that and then, despite herself, she burst into hysterics. "I'm sorry," she said. "That came out so wrong... I wasn't having a pop about you being, you know..."
"He prefers the term 'omnisexual'," said Ianto, stepping into the room. "It's the polite way of saying he'll sleep with anything - men, women... cephalopods. I must be the only boyfriend that's ever had to get jealous in a fishmongers."
"Don't knock the sensual embrace of the tentacle", Jack replied with a wink.
"Oh God...", Ianto replied. "I could have died happy had I never heard you say that. Changing the subject - 'cos one of us has to before someone throws up - I've disconnected four monitors, the amp and a couple of speakers, so we're all set."
"Isn't he wonderful?" Jack said to Julia, kissing Ianto on the forehead. "What would I do without him?"
"The same things you do with me, just to someone else," Ianto deadpanned.'

That passage threw me into a giggling fit in the middle of the bookstore, so naturally I had to get it. I'm in the middle of reading it now, and it's fantastic so far.

After the bookstore, we headed over to the movie theatre, where we went and saw '9'. It definitely wasn't what I expected, but I still loved it. It had a message that I think needed to get out there wrapped up in a unique package that was unforgettable. While I would try to describe it, it's one of those films that's better left experienced, but I definitely recommend it, though I will also say that it's not for everyone, especially small kids.

Our fun outing was concluded with lunch at Sonic's (I had a humburger, tater tots, and a real-fruit strawberry slushie...heaven). Then we headed home, and I took a nice long nap. The rest of my evening was just spent hanging around, reading my book, playing 'Luminous Arc'.... just having a good time.

Well, this pretty much wraps up my entry for today. To finish it up, I have some lyrics for Deanna. Is it just me, or does this song remind you of Nathan/Jack to a degree (established friendship notwithstanding)?

( For Deanna )

As I said in my last entry, I am currently visiting Colette at her grandparent's house and I have found the one downside to it: the air mattress that we're sharing. Now, it's not the sharing of the mattress that bothers me; it's the mysterious leak that we can't find in it that ensures that I wake up with a backache every morning in a pocket of deflated plastic. Yes that's right. I end up in a air pocket of sorts which creates a sort of suction so that when I get up it makes an odd noise. Not the most pleasant thing in the world, all things considered. I will be very pleased to be sleeping in my own bed at the end of this week. At first I thought I was staying two weeks, but my mom e-mailed me last night telling me that it was too quiet when I wasn't around (what does that say about me!?) and that she wanted to pick me up on Sunday. So back home I suppose I shall go. I will miss it here, but there is something quite nice about returning home. It's the place where you know everything and feel most comfortable in your own skin, I think, so I won't mind being back there.

I finally changed some of my icons on my livejournal; yay! And I also actually started to write in it....double yay! I also changed up the layout in my journal here. It sucks that I can't use the banner now that Deanna made me, but at least I can still use it on my userinfo page. And may I say, it looks pretty kick-ass up there.

Speaking of Deanna, I've been enjoying my RP's with her. At the moment we're doing a Eureka RP centered around Carter/Nathan (I feel odd calling Carter 'Jack', because when I hear that name I automatically see John Barrowman's gorgeous cocky grin, and not Colin Ferguson, so it becomes somewhat awkward in my imagination), and it's been fantastic so far. I wasn't sure how I was going to handle playing Nathan, but the more we got into it, the more I realized that I actually have a lot in common with that character. No, not the brilliance, though I do have his share of ego on some occasions, though I don't try to. Not to mention some emotional evasiveness, but let's not go there, shall we?

All righty: must go eat breakfast now in preperation for a busy day full of craft stores and candle parties. Have a great day and remember to hug a Fargo and chat up a smart house!

Wow, it's been a long time since I've posted in this journal. I've been home for several months now and couldn't be happier about that. Of course, I'm technically not home right now; I'm actually at Colette's grandparents house, but that's cool, because I LOVE it here. It's in Eastern Washington, which means that we're basically out in the country, which is fantastic. It's also located in the middle of our wine country, so when I got out of the car I was greeted with the smell of ripe grapes, which is lovely. I really have become completely charmed with this place, and I'm definitely going to miss in when I go back home. But enough waxing poetic; let's get on with this journal entry, shall we?

~ Well, I'm finally 21 now; YAY! Of course, it's not really much different than being 20, aside from the fact that I can drink legally. But since I don't really have much opportunity to drink anyway, it doesn't really matter.

~ STILL don't have a job, and am growing more and more frustrated. I mean, I have applications out all over the place, but it doesn't seem to matter. I know it hurts me that I don't have any job experience but how am I supposed to get any experience when I can't get a job because I don't have any experience....ARGH!! It's a vicious cycle; it really is. All I can do is keep trying and hope against hope that I don't end up like Will Ferrell and John C. Reilly in 'Stepbrothers'.

~ I have become addicted to many new television shows to many new television shows. Doctor Who, Eureka, How I Met Your Mother, Ouran High School Host Club, and Ghost Hunt to be exact. Actually, I'm watching Ghost Hunt as I'm typing this. It's definitely unlike most anime's I've seen, but I've gotten really into it.

~ Am STILL mad at RTD and the BBC for killing off Ianto in the newest season of Torchwood. I know, I know, that's really lame, but I can't help myself. Plus, they also made Jack act like a total asshole, which didn't make me too happy either. Oh well, I shall have to hope that next season they manage to turn the show around and still keep it good.

~ Am sad that DT will be leaving DW this Christmas. He was my first Doctor after all and no matter what, I think he will always be my favorite Doctor. I'm actually torn about his demise. I'm sad that he's dying, but quite pleased that the Master will be the one to finish off this particular generation. (Yay John Simm!) I'm hoping that the 11th Doctor will be at least half as amazing as DT, but that bow tie leaves me with some serious doubts. I'm keeping an open mind though.

~ Have developed a huge crush on J. Michael Tatum, an anime voice actor. Sounds nerdy, but look at this guy!



Not only is he seriously cute, he's also got an incredibly sexy voice. I first heard him as Doumeki on XxXHolic, and then I heard him as Kyouya, which is what cemented my love of his voice. And then seeing him cemented the crush. Seriously, if he's at Sakura-Con '10 and I'm unable to go, I may cry....well, not really, but I'll be very sad. ^^

~ I've been reading rather voraciously lately, trying to keep my mind sharp, even though I'm not in school. I just finished reading a rather fascinating book called 'The Kindness of Sisters: Annabella Milbanke and the destruction of the Byrons'. Since I had never really heard much about Byron's wife I thought it would be an interesting read, and it was. I also came to the conclusion that she was kind of a bitch. Not that Byron couldn't be a right bastard when he wanted to be, but she was just as bad in her own way, if not worse. The book also gave a good inside look at Byron's sister, Augusta. She seemed to be a rather odd woman, but most of the time I just felt really bad for her. Right now I'm in the middle of a book of letters the Marquis De Sade wrote during his time in prison. The Marquis is a historical figure who's interested me for some time, and reading this book is giving me a great look inside his mind. I'm also reading a book called 'Phantom' by Susan Kay, which is the story of Erik, or the Phantom of the Opera. It's an extremely gripping story, and I'm enjoying it.

Well, I think that's it for my updates. Wow, most of those were kind of nerdy, but I feel accomplished for updating again, since it almost never happens. Well, until next time, don't forget to hug a Time Lord, and drink a Welshman's coffee!

This is my playlist for a little mini-project that Deanna and I started last night. It's for pure giggles and enjoyment, but anyone is free to check it out.

( Something in your eyes makes me want to lose myself in your arms... )

Much as I hate to say this, I'm really starting to dread whenever my family calls. It's not that I don't like hearing from them as such, but everytime they call it's to either give me bad news about something or to hound me about getting a job; it's really starting to get to me.

First off, my dad called me yesterday and informed me that he has glaucoma, and that he could go blind. Thankfully he's getting laser eye surgery done and that should take care of it, but it still didn't exactly make my day. Then today my mom calls and tells me that her boss's wife just passed away. Not only that, but apparently he's not giving her full credit as an agent. For example, he didn't put her name on an advertisement where everyone else was listed, and he hasn't ordered her new business cards, even though she's asked him twice now to do it. She said she's planning on looking for a new job and I agree with her on that 100%, but I also think she needs to ask him about those things, if only for an explanation. I mean, she's been a part of that company for a long time now and she derserves as much respect as anyone else. Even though I do feel very bad that Dale (my mom's boss) lost his wife, he really can be a first class asshole at times. My dad also talked to me today and told me that his lower back was hurting (around his kidneys)and that his stress level is way beyond where it should be. I have to admit, I'm scared. I mean, my dad's health has always been pretty bad but he just sounds so tired on the phone, and it's really starting to worry me.

On top of that, my mom got on me once again about getting a job. I know it's just because she wants me to succeed, and it's not that I don't appreciate it, but she constantly repeats herself about where I should go and what I should look for. She also constantly stresses how important it is for me to find one, and that, even if I don't find one before I come home that I'll have to keep looking for one once I get home, like I'm coming home to try and get out of working. The thing is she seems to keep forgetting is that I want to work. I mean, part of the reason I came down here in the first place was so that I could see if job opportunities were any better here than they were where I was. The fact that I've basically been sitting on my ass doing nothing important with my life for about two years does get to me, and I think she fails to see that, no matter how many times I tell her.

When you get right down to it, looking for work right now is difficult because a lot of kids are looking for summer jobs. A lot of the things I've seen are for people with previous experience, which doesn't help me either. It is frustrating and discouraging, but that doesn't mean I'm going to stop looking. I'm going to start picking up applications whenever we go somewhere that isn't too far away or that's suitable, and I'm not picky about where I go. The only thing I can't do is work late into the night, because I would have no way to get back to the house, but other than that I'm pretty open. I did find a couple of jobs that might work; I just have to figure out if I could get to them. I'm just keeping my fingers and toes crossed and hoping for the best; doing that and continuing to look is all I really can do.

These are some of my favorite quizzes from this website that I love, along with a random image that I find quite amusing. Enjoy!

( Insert something witty here )

So after my journal was pimped out with a fantastic new layout and mood theme, I stepped back and realized the one thing left it was missing: some sweet new icons! Yes, my icon collection has been sadly neglected for a long time; many of them are from things I loved ages ago but have now fallen to the wayside. Eager to remedy this, I deleted a chunk of them and are now in the process of replacing them. I've already found some good ones, an example of which can be found in this very entry. Granted, it is a little eerie in comparison to the layout, but it's also absolutely adorable! I mean, who can hate Bambi, really?

Jumping to a completely different topic, last night I watched part of Shark Attack 3: Megalodon, thanks to Deanna who I was talking to at the time and just happened to notice that it was on the Sci-Fi channel. Now, this movie is no prize; far from it, it's just out and out bad. The acting is horrific, the special effects worse, and the script...well, don't even get me started on that trainwreck. Why did I watch it then, do you ask? Two very good reasons. One, I am a glutton for badly-made movies, and two, because I can't resist John Barrowman. Honestly, he was the main reason I watched it because even though I love watching bad movies from time to time, I don't think I could have handled that monstrosity without something to make it worthwhile. And he tried so very hard to make that movie good, he really did. He was actually holding his own until the end, when everything was killed with the wonderfully witty quip: "Megalo-who?" God; no words, seriously.

Wrapping this entry up, right now all my good thoughts and well-wishes go out to my friend Deanna. Without going into great deal, I know she's going through a lot of tough stuff right now and I just want to let her know (even though I told her last night) that I am here for her 100%. I just wish I could be with her right now when she really needs a friend, especially since I know what it's like to feel alone. I do have a goal though, that one day I will get my ass to New Jersey and visit her properly. I'm not sure when it will be, but it's definitely one of the things that I am working toward. But anyway, to cut out my rambling, I just want to send this out to her. Sorry that it's in letter format dear; but it's how I work best:

Deanna,

Yeah, this is definitely a little formal for us, but it's the best way for me to say what I need to say. First of all, and I know I say this a lot, you are a wonderful friend. We've known each other for a long time now and you have seen me through so much. You were a great source of comfort to me when I felt lost or alone or just overwhelmed, and it always brightened my day when I was able to talk to you, whether it be on the phone or online. I always found it so funny that, as different as we are, we clicked so easily, and I attribute that entirely to you. I'm not always the easiest person to get close to, and I know I can be rather arrogant at times, but you have accepted me despite that, and it means a great deal to me, more than I can ever express.

The best thing about you though, is that not only are you a good friend, but you're a good person. You are intelligent, funny, loyal, and compassionate toward people who you care about. In the world we live in today, those are all very rare gifts and they will take you someplace, of that I have no doubt. I don't know exactly what went down with the people in your life, but if they have let go of your friendship, then they have lost a very precious thing, and, even if they never see it, it will affect them. I feel so honored and proud to call you my friend, and I can't wait until we can actually hang out and do things together. I know that we'll have a blast wreak havoc wherever we may go. =) I just hope that I have been the kind of friend to you that you have been to me, and I am looking forward to many more years of friendship with you.

Love, your friend always,
Bernadette

Wow, this entry ended on a rather heartfelt note for it's rather light-hearted beginning, but I think I said all I needed to say. Until next time guys, I am out.

I've seen this music meme floating around in different places and thought I'd try it out myself. So here we go, my life in music:

So, here's how it works:
1.) Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2.) Put it on shuffle
3.) Press play
4.) For every question, type the song that's playing
5.) When you go to a new question, press the next button
6.) Don't lie

Opening Credits: If You're Going Through Hell by Rodney Atkins
Waking Up: Heaven by Hayley Westenra
Falling in Love: Man's Road from The Last Unicorn Soundtrack
Fight Song: My Give A Damn's Busted by Jo Dee Messina
Break-Up Song: Sometimes by Britney Spears
Prom: Manic Monday by The Bangles
Mental Breakdown: 500 Miles by The Proclaimers
Flashback: Ending Theme from 'Black Cat' by Puppyet
Wedding: Caramelldansen by Caramel
Birth of a Child: Kiss Me by Sixpence None The Richer
Final Battle: Lesson In Leavin' by Jo Dee Messina
Death Scene: Prayer by Hayley Westenra
Funeral Song: The Last Unicorn by America
End Credits: Hollywood's Not America by Ferras

On a final note, I dedicate my icon to Adam Lambert, the REAL American Idol winner!

I've cheered up a little bit since my last post (thank you Deanna), and so I have decided to post some random quizzes. I hope everyone enjoys.

( I bang my own drum; some think it's noise; I think it's pretty )

First of all, I want to wish all the wonderful mother's out there a Happy Mother's Day! You all do a job that requires much more patience than I could ever hope to have, and I admire you all for that.

My parents called me for Mother's Day today; it was easy talking to my mom and sister. My dad...not so much. He's having such a hard time dealing with having me gone, and it just made me miss him all over again. The funny thing is, I thought I would be the one having a hard time but I've actually adjusted very well. Sure, it was really hard that first night, but after my mom had left I just sort of naturally fit in on my own. My dad on the other hand is a wreck. He just sounded so heartbroken on the phone and I didn't really know what to say in all honesty. I know he wants me to come home; he told me as much. Now, I would never let that pressure me into going back; if I do go back home it'll be my decision and mine alone. Even though I am happy here, I still haven't gotten used to everything and I am still very unsure of whether or not I will stay past my ticket date. Even though I know I can't live at home forever, nor would I want to, this was a huge step. I don't regret it, not for a moment, but I just am not sure if I can handle being so far from home for a very long period of time. Right now, I'm just waiting to see what will happen; so much can happen in a few months, so everything is up in the air right now. I just have to take it one step at a time, and enjoy the experience.

( More Under The Cut... )

Okay, so this technically should have been posted yesterday but I was busy yesterday and actually, I didn't know that yesterday was the wonderful event, so I'm posting it now. All righty:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEANNA!

Yes, it was my friend's 18th birthday yesterday and since she's one of the most awesome, fantastic people I talk to, I'd thought I'd pimp her out here. Even the icon is somehow related to our friendship, though she's probably the only one who'll know the real reason...but I digress...

All right, so where should I start? I met Deanna in 2002; at least, I'm pretty sure. I met her on FF.net over a fic that she wrote; funnily enough, that's also how I met the love of my life. In fact, most of the cool people I talk to online that I've never actually met, I encountered on FF.net, so maybe that site is better than everyone thinks. Or maybe I'm just lucky; that is definitely possible too. But I'm getting off track here.

So I met Deanna over a fic (which I think she wishes she could forget), but the point is, we started talking via IM and just hit it off so perfectly. It was awesome, because she was my first real internet friend (or i-friend for short), but over time I've definitely come to think of her as real, friend. She's one of only two people that gets my quirks and shares some of them as well; she's honest, funny, and kind. She has a fantastically unique outlook on life, and isn't afraid to tell people exactly what she thinks of them. She is seriously one of the greatest people I have ever talked to.

In closing, I guess I just want to say that I feel so lucky to have a friend like Deanna; she makes my life a little better and I hope that we'll be friends for many years to come. Happy birthday, my dear!

There are things that have happened recently that I could write about, but honestly, I'd rather not. Instead, I decided to post pictures of my pets, past to present. The only one that's missing is my cat Juana, because I was never able to get a picture of her with my digital camera. Here are the others though, for your viewing pleasure. Enjoy...

( All Creatures Great and Small )

So yeah, I am highly amused and self-satisfied. Yesterday, I found out that they're canceling Moonlight; that's right, no more lame plot lines and overdone dramatics for us.

Now, for some reason when I found this out, I just felt kind of smug, mostly because Supernatural which always has its ass on the ropes, is staying around for the fourth season, and all the Moonlight fans are all upset over that. Seriously, I just want to go to every forum and post things like "Who's got the better show now bitches!" or something equally as lame. I mean, I'll never do that, since I don't need i-drama (yes everything associated with the internet will have an "i" in front of it), and whenever I try to use the word "bitches" in that kind of context, I just end up sounding incredibly lame and incredibly white. Like, something right out of Weird Al's song "White and Nerdy"; I kid you not. But it's still tempting.

Another reason why I wouldn't do it is because I don't want to venture into the den of crazy that is any Moonlight forum out there. I mean, the fans of that show are rabid, I swear. They consist mainly of 30-40 year old housewives who are trying to live on the edge through Beth. Though I don't see how they could be; Beth is dating a pseudo-vampire. Seriously, the guy can go out in the daylight; how anti-vampiric can you get!? But anyway, they think they're "Taking Chances" somehow and it goes beyond being a devoted fan to just becoming something really creepy. Some of them have gone through or are going through depression because they show's getting cancelled and one woman even lost her job. Other people are actually taking to the streets and plan to protest outside of the gates of CBS or whatever studio it is.

The most ironic and possibly amusing thing about this is that the actor's themselves are fine with the decision; even the creator's fine with it, and issued a statement saying as much. But these i-tards just can't get that through their thick skulls; I don't get it, I really don't. I mean, it's just a show people; live with the failure and move on. And it's not even a very good show at that. With the way it was going, I'm glad CBS cancelled it; it needed to happen before it got any worse. And hopefully this poor, pathetic women will eventually move on and find something else to fill the empty void in their lives, even if it is only a pint of Ben & Jerry's.

Thus ends this early morning entry, and probably one of the most satisfying I have ever wrote.

Okay, so....I doubt anyone reading this journal will care about this entry, but I've been saying to pretty much everybody and I now I just need to officially put in print somewhere, just to get it off my chest. Ahem....::clears throat::

The Phoenix Wright games are the best games in the whole world and have taken over part of my life!!!

Whew....I feel better for some reason...now, since I would feel really ridiculous not explaining myself, I guess I'll go into a little more detail.

So basically, the first three games in the series follow the career of a defense attorney named Phoenix Wright, who is also the character you play. There are 4-5 cases per game, and it's your job to find your client innocent by interviewing witnesses, finding clues and using evidence you collect in court. If your client is found to be innocent, you win the case and another one is unlocked. However, if your client is found guilty, you lose the case and you have to start all over again from the beginning of it. That's basically the long and the short of it.

Now, this may sounds boring, but it really isn't, not in the slightest. Each case has great dialogue and a cast of very colorful characters. This is also probably one of the only video games I've found that really makes you think but is hugely entertaining at the same time. I'll admit, there have been times that I've gotten very frustrated with it, but when I figure it out, it makes it all worth it, it really does. I most likely sound like a huge dork/nerd when I talk about this, but trust me; try the games, you won't be disappointed.

So....wow yeah, it's been a while. I don't really count the last entry as a real entry; that was more of an announcement. Therefore, it's been over a month. The sad thing is, not much has happened in said month. Nevertheless, I will find things to talk about.

First off, and I doubt anyone really cares about this, they say that Moonlight could get cancelled, and that outlooks is starting to become more and more likely as time goes on. Now at first, this kinda got me upset. I mean, I wasn't crying or kicking things or anything, but I was a little cheesed. I mean, I do enjoy watching it every Friday with my mom, and I think it has a lot of promise to it. However, after talking with a fellow Moonlight watcher (D.J.), I got to thinking. D.J. has a habit of making me do that a lot. The thing is, even though the show does have a lot of things that give it promise, I doubt that the writers will take in a promising direction. They've already done some things with it that I thought were poor choices, and from the way it looks, there will probably be more of that in the future. They moved things way too fast, did some questionable things with certain characters, and it doesn't seem like that will change. I would rather they end the show now before I start to completely despise it; they're supposed to bring out the first (and possibly only) season on DVD, so at least I'd have that.

Speaking of other television shows, I have been watching a ton of House lately, mostly because I got Colette hooked on it. We watched basically the entire first season when she came over last weekend; it was like a tidal wave of snark just hit me all at once. It was fun though, and I'm going to start on the second season soon. My little sister owns both of them, and they're the only good ones; season three is on now and it really sucks, at least in my opinion. They had a good thing going and I think they broke it off too fast; but I digress.

I can't believe that Sakura-Con is just around the corner. It's so close, and I'm getting really excited about it. The only thing that sucks about it is that, if I don't get my ID renewed soon, I'll still be considered a minor, even though I'm going on twenty years old! The same thing happened to me last year and it wasn't too bad, but it still sucked, because there are certain things I can't buy or even look at, due to the fact that the people at the Con are paranoid as shit. I even offered to show my voter's registration card, since you have to be 18 in order to have one of those, but that just isn't enough for them. It's so ridiculously frustrating and I'm just hoping that I can get my new ID card before the Con. It'll still be fun, but it would be even more so if I didn't have that retarded minor stamp on my nametag.

Staying on related topics, I have been reading a ton of manga lately. Colette practically brought over her entire collection and told me to start reading them, so I, having not much else to do, began to. I don't really remember all the names of the ones I've read thus far, but I think my favorite would have to be DearS. It's a lot like Chobits, and written by the same people, so if you like Chobits and haven't read DearS, I strongly recommend it. Most of the time I don't bother with manga, mostly because I can read it so quickly and I don't see the point on spending money on it due to that fact. But reading it can be enjoyable from time to time.

On a final note, I picked up two new CDs this weekend: 'Symphony' by Sarah Brightman and 'Poison Kiss' by The Last Goodnight. I was surprised by 'Symphony', since I had expected more heavier metal peices, like the second song on the CD. Even though that was the only peice like that, it was still an enjoyable CD, though I would have to say my favorite Sarah Brightman album of all time is 'La Luna'. No matter how many times I listen to it, it still sends chills down my spine. With 'Poison Kiss', that also really surprised me. I had heard both 'Pictures of You' and 'Stay Beautiful' on the radio, but the rest of the CD was as good as those two songs, and some of the tracks were even better. It's an awesome debut album, and I strongly recommend it. In fact, to wrap up this random entry full of rambly things (which is how many of my entries are) I will post the lyrics of my favorite song off that album. Hope you enjoy:

( The lyrics )

On April 1st, I just found out that Jim Butcher is coming to my neck of the woods!

::does cartwheels::

Why yes, I am a very happy girl.